I am late once again writing this series. I find that I am getting busier on the weekends and I often just forget about it. Then Monday comes around and I don’t feel like writing it. I lack motivation. Partly because I’ve been doing it for a while and it’s no longer novel. But also partly because I’ve achieved a large portion of what I’ve set out to do. I haven’t reached my target weight of 155 pounds, but at the same time, I’ve also found something that works consistently for me. I find myself with nothing more to say. I go to the gym and I work out. There is no secret. And now, I feel like there’s nothing worth saying on this topic anymore.
That’s why I’m going to refocus this blog on the things I still suck at. The things I still need help, accountability, and motivation to fix. Before yesterday, I hadn’t cooked a meal in about two whole weeks. This was mainly because I thought I was going to go on work travel but I really just used that as an excuse. I think to myself, well if I can’t cook meals for the whole week, I shouldn’t cook at all. It’s hilarious because that’s the mentality that would hold me back when I was dieting. Well, I didn’t diet this meal, I shouldn’t diet for the whole day. It’s a mentality that makes excuses when the conditions aren’t perfect, and things rarely are.
Starting next week, I’m going to report on what I’m eating for each meal and the cost of that meal. Similarly to how I started reporting on exercise days, I want to report individual meals now for accountability. Moreover, I want to change my budget reporting to show what meals costed what. I realize that the way I’ve been reporting, good habits and bad habits are lumped together. Good habits obviously keep that red line down but I don’t get to see my successes if they get drowned out by the large increases that large meals are going to produce.
Tracking weight is a fluid thing. If there is a setback, it can be reversed. But there was no going back with my budget tracking. Once that big spend of $50 dollars was in the books, that was it. It didn’t matter if I didn’t eat out for the next week. To encourage myself, I need to focus just as much on those successes and hopefully this new format will help with that. I will likely still report on my weight and exercise maybe once a month and try to focus more on areas that need improvement. Look forward to the adapted format next time!