Much of April felt like an internal battle to be productive at work. I had that feeling where things were piling up and I wasn’t motivated to do any of it. I felt like tasks were getting larger and larger where there’s no clear beginning and end. In these cases, it falls on me to do more self management and break up projects into smaller, accomplishable processes. I wasn’t able to find a way to do this consistently and it created a lot of tension within myself that I carried around into all the other parts of my life. Much like I’ve self managed my eating and exercise for the most part, I’ll have to find a way to manage myself in other areas of my life.
I can tell I’m really getting complacent about this whole project. I’ve started getting more compliments. I’m looking better in the mirror. These are great encouragements but I’m losing that sense of urgency and I still do want to lose another 10 pounds or so. I’ve gotten this far by not trying to push myself so hard mentally and drain my will power. I’ll be going back to the strategy of trying to put myself in the right environment (aka the gym) in order to continue to progress.
This calendar really stands out to me. The past couple weeks have had minimal effort from me for exercise. Sure, I was on travel last week but two back to back days of 30 minutes only? That’s just low effort and I know it. Gone are the days where Wilkin and I split our lunches into two meals. This is probably around the time that most people give up on their New Year’s resolutions and I would be too but I fear the embarrassment of kicking up this much fuss and then just laying it to rest after 4 months. This blog series continues to be a motivator.
Total meal spend in April came out to $846.56. This is an all time high since I started tracking. Again, this is a sure sign of lack of effort. I’ve been doing better things but I’ve been letting it slip. I have to keep telling myself that these failures are part of the plan though. It would be easy to just set my mind to saving money, eating better, and losing weight and have everything work out fine. In the long run, I’m hoping I’ll learn something about myself and how I am able to keep progressing through the tough parts. Then I’ll actually have something to write about.
Accomplishments in April
- I was accepted into Georgia Tech’s Online Master’s for Data Analytics program!
- Finished reading Brotopia by Emily Chang
- Finished reading Switch by Chip Heath
- Finished reading Pachinko by Min Jin Lee
- Rediscovered my less is more approach with kombucha and started getting the carbonation levels back where I want them
Failures in April
- I wanted to post regularly on a weekly basis and I couldn’t follow through. I wanted to do a CHU Reviews every Tuesday followed by a post on my What I Learned at Apple series every Thursday for each week of April. I just found that I wasn’t all that motivated to pump these posts out and the words weren’t flowing the way I wanted them to. Writing cannot be rushed!
Surprises in April
- I started playing Magic: the Gathering again, I can’t be stopped!
I’m just gonna try to get my act together as best I can. I’ll be honest, most of my natural effort is gravitating towards Magic right now. I’m absorbing content, I even find myself wanting to produce content and I’m enjoying playing the game. That’s fine and all but there needs to be a balance with the rest of my life. At the same time, this is just how I kind of am. I get wrapped up in something for a while at full throttle.