So I finally broke through 170 pounds! I immediately followed that up with some meals of eating out so my weight has been fluctuating quite a bit. However, even after severely pigging out yesterday, I only recovered up to 171 pounds.
I think the difference this time has been that my overall appetite has gone down. I found myself feeling full from the regular meals that I cook and pack myself. For example, I started dividing my steaks into thirds instead of halves because they just feel like too much food now. This has not been an active decision on my part. I’m just following what my body is telling me. I don’t really know why my appetite has decreased recently. Perhaps, like the rest of this process, I have been trending towards that and now have passed a threshold where I can see the results.
One important takeaway for me is that I didn’t starve myself to get to this point. I’ve been packing my own food and controlling my own portions and I’ve eaten until I felt full. I think that when I tried to diet in the past, I was at war with my body. I didn’t like my body so I wanted to hammer it into the form I desired. This meant going against all the urges it was telling me. Salad for every meal. This time, it feels like we’re working together. We push each other sometimes but we’re also patient with each other as well.
I realized I was too full because I eat before my Muay Thai classes. Going into intense exercise with a full stomach is not a good feeling. It weirded me out at first because it was the same portions I had been packing for the entire year but now it was too much. There were a couple days when I felt a bit bloated and sluggish during classes and that has clued me into reducing my portions.
Muay Thai has been going well. I’ve been feeling more confident with sparring. Most of that involves just learning to protect myself and being aware that I’m going to get hit. I have been to 25 classes of last week but it feels like many more. The classes are small enough to where I get a decent amount of individual training and it’s nice to be able to shut my mind off and just execute what someone else tells me to do. It’s really been a great bang for buck investment.
A little less than halfway through the month, I’m sitting at $410 exactly. Whereas exercising and losing weight have not been much of a struggle, sticking to the $400/month budget has really not come to fruition and clearly must take much more discipline. For me, I’m not good at all with discipline so I’m coming around to the idea that I need to make this budget appeal to me and give me a reason for me to wish to stick to it.
To me, eating out and hanging out with friends will trump saving that small slice of money and I believe it’s worth it. My grocery shopping budget is actually not a big deal either. I think because I’m starting to eat less, I will also be able to buy less on a weekly basis. I don’t have an idea of the solution right now but starting to recognize that this isn’t really working is a good step for me. I’m definitely open to suggestions if you guys have any ideas!